New Year...New Me!!!

Things are going to be different in 2007...

*I'm not going to do things because others want me to!  I'm going to start making my OWN decisions!  I know that I started to do this towards the end of last year, but I'm going to be way more successful this year...i've been practicing saying no :)

*I'm not going to take crap from anyone anymore.  So basically if you decide to tell me what you think about what i'm doing expect to get what i think thrown right back at you.  I honestly don't care if you don't like it because i dont really like what you have to say either.  A few things this is for sure going for is smoking, the foods i eat (i.e. soy milk, fake cheese, apples and PB, etc..), how i dress and when i choose to sleep.  I dont want to be rude but i'm tired of people trying to run my life.

*i'm not going to let everything upset me anymore.  I have a lot of new ways to deal with hurt adn i plan on using them.  I dont want to be like i was before.

so basically i'm going to take control of my life during 2007!!!  Get Excited!!

Happy New Year everyone!!

So, It's been a while once again....I think that you'll find that a lot has changed since I used to write in this thing before.  For the most part I'd have to say that things have changed for the better.  I'm so much happier than i used to be, but i'm still def. still having some trouble dealing with certain things.  I still dont' deal with all the stressful situations that well, but i'm getting better.  honestly, i'm getting better.

Ahh...there's just so much stuff to write about right now, but i'm entirely too tired to do it right now.

Later everyone.

Things aren't going any better right now...but i have a new outlook on them.  So, I'm doing a lot better because of that.

Things are for sure going to be different now.

this semester is turning out to be hell

it's so fucking hard

i can't keep up with it all

i can't please everyone

i just can't do anything anymore

i feel like people think i'm more messed up than i am

i dont like that people in the house know my business

i wish i could go back to before

i wish i knew what i should do

i wish someone actually cared enough to want to help for the right reasons

i wish some people would leave me alone.

i just want to be normal again.

ehhh...very distressed right now....

back to the homework so i can get a few hours of shut eye tonight.